traffic jam

traffic at a sudden standstill
frozen on the freeway
car's just about to stall
just like my crazy life
frozen in my own roles
going nowhere fast at all

time ticks by; minute by minute,
hour by long drawn hour
all alone in a traffic jam
year by year, decade by decade
mistake by crazy mistake
brings me closer to who I am

looking in my rearview mirror
worn eyes looking back at me
watching how or what I see
looking at nothing happening
no movement, no breath, no wind
caught up in the great ennui

traffic's creeping slowly forward
past the scene of a burned out car
ambulance racing to the pile of ash
my own accident lies in ahead
hindsight failing as I race around the curve
bracing for the massive crash